Demon Seed

It keeps growing 
And i can feel it breathe 
I have been trying 
To behave myself
It keeps growing 
And i can feel it breathe 
I have been trying 
To tolerate you

Well i am reaching the point

I thought maybe
I thought this would go away
But it continues
The only constant
Every day
Stronger

I will use my voice 
And i will use my fist 
To destroy 
Everything i can

Now i know 
What this is all about
Now i know 
Exactly what i am

There is a seed 
Inside of me

That makes me...

Demon Seed by Nine Inch Nails

Taking refuge in music.

NIN's The Slip - Download it for free here,
it doesn't make things allright but it sure drowns out thoughts (that aren't getting me anywhere anyway)

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