Kissing the sky

I found myself laughing wildly into that blind beautiful night sky some time after midnight yesterday. Laughing, watching my breath condense in the cold and come out in little laughing-puffs. Big glittery tophat perched on my head, hand in pocket, other hand clutching the cold glass of champagne i brought from the house, parents holding hands beside me and kissing each other. Brother holding hands with *his* new girlfriend. Kissing each other.

And there I was, nobody to kiss but that vast lit-up sky, warm all over from love and care, tears in my eyes from the beautiful fireworks in the sky, burning smell of it in my nose and the sparkle of champagne in my mouth.
And I realised I was just where I wanted to be, that nobody was missing, that this was *not* just good enough, but perfect. And so, when I realized I was laughing on my own, I laughed some more with the sheer joy of it. Perfect indeed. Perfect to end a year laughing, perfect to open a new year laughing.

2008 was the year in which:

I started blogging again

I took me 6 months to leave a man
(same post as before, I actually started leaving him in July.)  Then I left some more in September, a little bit more in October, and in November I thought it was over.
And basically stopped writing about it. 
There's only so many sad posts a girl wants to publish and I felt I needed to get on with my life. But it turns out I only left him a few days ago.
And when I finally succeded in leaving him, I could do so only because I did it his way.
Cussing, swearing, throwing dirt on everything that he was, we were, and everything that went in between. But it worked. I am single again. And while I dislike to end a relationship cussing, swearing etc, (and never did before now) I find that it worked when we did it his way *mental note to self about that*.
We are truly over. 

I decided to split with my flatmate and move on to something on my own. The lovely elderly couple bailed out though, and I had to make the choice of searching for something else or stay where I am.

I decided to stay. We had new windows put in, I did a hell of a paintjob and raided Ikea =).

I got on Facebook. Doesn't sound like much, I know, but probably I read much into it because I am far from Denmark. I love to find acquaintances, friends and family in one place. And I love it when people find me. On Facebook I hook up again with friends I lost track of. Lovely !

As i wrote in my previous post, there's a few things I wish for in this new year. I will keep you posted =).


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